Friday, January 7, 2011

"I CANNOT SAY GOODBYE"


I cannot say goodbye.
My Earth Friend Stubby Life of Stubby has gone to the Rainbow Bridge.

Stubby told me to remember that there is a time for everything.
But I did not know that there was a time for a heart, to hurt so deeply.

There are so many Stubby memories that I hold in my heart.
I will lay them out on the ground like little marbles,
and I will pick them up, one at a time, and look at the beautiful memories painted on each one.

Please help me look as I hold them in my paw. Will you?

Stubby could feel the heart beat of the forest and our earth.

He taught me to "tread lightly", in the forest, and to listen.

Stubby looked for the good in people. He wanted peace on earth so bad.
Stubby loved life with all his heart.

Stubby told me he was the luckiest pug on earth to have his mom and dad who loved him so much. Stubby was sad that their hearts hurt when they could not make him all better.

I never met Stubby, but we wrote to each other every night.
We shared stories and dreams.

Sometimes in the big universe , one heart will connect to another. Souls can connect deeper, than the deepest oceans.if we listen, we can feel the rhythm of each others hearts beating to the rhythm of our own. My heart was drawn to that rhythm that Stubby, was in tune to.

Stubby shared stories with me about his ponds, and the ducks and geese that visited.
He told me about his forest trails, and his forest friends.
I also shared stories about my forest. Stubby was wise and he told me that when I need answers, to go ask the trees and the forest creatures for the answers.
So very wise, Stubby was.

One day I asked Stubby if he had a favorite dream, and his answer was ;
"I dream about lots of things but my favorite dreams are ones in which I am healthy. I dream about the days when we first moved to our house and I would run like a crazy pug around the backyard. I could run from one end of the yard to the other in no time flat and I loved every minute of it."

Stubby wished on the snowflakes as they gently tumbled to the ground. He wished on the stars and the moon. He would dream about the "Sea of Tranquility" up on the moon. A place of peace and love.

My heart is greatful for the friendship that I hold in my heart.
What I learned from Stubby has changed me forever.

As Christmas was nearing, I shared a story with Stubby. After he read the story, Stubby said these words to me .
"Hearing your words lifted my spirit as I could imagine myself plowing through the snow filling the silence with my bells. I so wish I could run through the snow but your poem reminded me that I can, if only in my dreams. "



"Stubby's Song"

Once upon a time
on a midnight clear.
when every star in the sky
twinkled so brightly
where the moon beams chased shadows
of imaginary friends
...and the owls ,, hoot ,,, hooted ,,,,
In that very silent moment
I listened to the quiet,
I watched the snowflakes
drifting to the ground.
and in that very silent moment
i thought I heard
" ting a ling a ling.""ting a ling a ling"
i looked behind me
i looked beside me
and then i looked to the moutain top
the moon beams shown down
and in the shadows I saw
a small little pug in a bright red sweater
was i imagining?
With bells on his paws
he marched through the falling snow
he shuffeled through the snow
like a little steam engine..
he made a path,,
as the bells rang
ting a ling a ling.
the snowflakes whispered
and the stars twinkled
with bells on his paws
he marched
to the sounds of
ting a ling a ling
the little pug
marched and marched
and then suddenly
as the moon beams shone brighter and brighter
the words Peace on Earth could be seen
as they were written in the snow.
With the moon beams guiding his way
the little pug marched to the moutain top
to the rhythm
of ting a ling a ling,,
As the little pug was disappearing from my view,
he turned around and stretched out his paw...
i ran to him .
His name is Stubby
he is my friend .

Sweet dreams my Stubby
Everything is going to be okay.

There is a new star in the sky,, I am going to catch it if I can.
I cannot say goodbye



60 comments:

Maggie and Mitch said...

We are so sorry that we never got to meet Stubby, Tweedles. Our hearts ache for his family and all of his loving friends.

Love ya lots
Maggie and Mitch

3 doxies said...

Oh Tweedles, I am so very sorry to hears bout Stubby. He will live on in da hearts of so many.
Our thoughts are withs you and Stubby's pawrents.

Puddles

Art with Liz said...

Aah Tweedles, you are such a good friend to all. So sad to lose someone so special.

I Am HoneyBuzz said...

Dearest Tweedles,

Do you know why our hearts hurt so bad when someone we love has to leave us? It's because our hearts break and our friend takes that broken piece with them. They take it with them and it keeps them company as they journey to that place where we have yet to go. It keeps them company until the day when we are back together with them.

With love, Your friend HoneyBuzz

Mr. Pip said...

Oh Tweedles, I am so sorry for your loss. I never knew Stubby, but now I wish I had. He sounds like a wonderful spirit with so much insight about the world and the heart.

I was especially touched by your last email from him about the snow. I so hope he is somewhere running through the snow, free of pain and discomfort.

Love,Pip

Punchbugpug said...

Tweedles, such a wonderful tribute. We did meet Stubby and can tell you he had a wonderful heart and a smiling face! Heaven surely has gained an angel in having him....

Wilma said...

My Dearest Friend Tweedles,
Was a beautiful loving tribute to our friend Stubby. You always find the words to touch our hearts in the deepest place. I am sad today, for Stubby's family, for all of his friends. But I am sad for you too, you and Stubby shared a special bond. You now have a puggy angel watching over you in heaven. ((((((((big hugs))))))))

Yoda, Brutus & Ellie said...

Such a beautiful post Tweedles.... We are so sad but we know that Stubby is now pain free and he is running again like a young pug.

Pugs & Kisses,

Yoda, Brutus & Ellie

Diane said...

My sweet Tweedles...Aunt Diane is so very sad to hear about Stubby. That tribute to him was magnificent. I can tell he was a very good friend & you loved him a lot. Sending you & your moms lots of warm hugs & kisses. xoxoxoxoxo Aunt Diane

Puglette said...

hi tweedles, what a beautiful, loving tribute to stubby. he was indeed a special gentleman, touching so many hearts with his sweet face and smile. my thoughts and prayers are with him and his family as i join the one heart that loves him still.
hugs,
puglette

Barbara said...

Tweedles, that was such a loving gift for your friend.

Stubby is free now to do as he dreamed. We are all so sad for you and his parents.

We are all here for such a short time. Let's love each other while we can.

xx
barbara

Oskar said...
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Oskar said...

What a lovely tribute!

Nubbin wiggles,
Oskar

Khyra And Sometimes Her Mom said...

What a furry special tribute -

After all, it is just bye fur now -

Stubby has good khompany as a special of ours has khrossed today -

We've lit a candle fur all their safe travel -

Hugz&Khysses,
Khyra

Becky said...

What a loving tribute to Stubby! I was outside tonight looking at the stars, one twinkled back at me. I know it was Stubby saying he was missing all of us and looking after us and that he is all well now. It hurts really bad to let someone go but after awhile the hurt begins to heal and then your heart is filled once again with love and memories of that special loved one. We are all here for each other. It's ok to cry and be sad. It's our nature. We will all heal together I promise. Goodbye sweet little man pug Stubby. We are thinking of his parents and praying for them to heal with us.

♥♥♥ The OP Pack ♥♥♥ said...

We didn't know Stubby, but if he meant that much to you, Tweedles, we know we missed out on a great friendship. No need to say good-bye, just till we meet again.

Hugs, the OP Pack

Tweedles -- that's me said...

words from Barbara
"Tweedles,
I lost a brother.
You never say goodbye, you only say, "until I see you again".
Stubby is free from the monster. Stubby is running free. We all want miracles, but the miracle is that Stubby is no longer in fear of the monster.
Some day, Stubby's parents hearts will be able to have another son or daughter and they will love him with all the love they wanted to give to Stubby after he left. And while no one will ever take Stubby's place, a new love will grow and help them heal.

You too will have another Stubby in your life and will learn to love someone again.

You are the keeper of the universe and know that all things living will die to be born again in another form.

I am so sorry you are in pain. This pain I know deeply. But it will lessen in time and allow your heart to love again just as hard.

Know that I am with you on your journey and my heart cries for your pain, but I am your friend and you will get through this just as Stubby's parents will get through this.

Stubby would only want you and his parents to love another as they/you loved him.

Never say goodbye. Say "I will see you again some day". You will be okay because you are loved.

I hope you will listen to my words and be helped through this time by them.

Please tell Stubby's mom and dad that we all love them and will help them and you through this awful time.

Be happy, my friend, for the life Stubby had with the wonderful love that he received and know that you are loved just as well.

xxx
barbara

Tweedles -- that's me said...

gentle word from Wilma
Dear Tweedles,
I wanted to tell you that this morning when I went out into the freshly fallen snow, I looked out over my mountain, and I heard something. I heard bells. I heard Stubby telling me he was OK now. He told me he will wait there for us so we can all play together in the snow. I am sending you a picture of my mountain so that you can see it too.

Love,
Wilma

Melissa and Emmitt said...

oh tweedles
this is the most beautiful post
it has moved me more than i can ever say.
thank you for holding our paw as we all bless sweet stubby and his family.
he has brought us all together ~ woven into a family sewn with love.
thank you sweet stubby for all you have taught us and thank you twee for your beautiful words of healing for those of us walking through the snow.

we will all meet again and what a beautiful reunion that will be.

xoxoxo
melissa & emmitt

Benny and Lily said...

We are so sad to hear about Stubby
Snuggles,
Benny & Lily

KB said...

Blogger just let me load your blog. What a beautiful and touching remembrance of Stubby. Stubby was right - there is a time for everything - no matter how painful it is for those left behind. It sounds like Stubby was very wise, and he'd tell you, Tweedles, to seek solace from your forest friends. Go out and walk your forest paths, letting the spirit of Stubby guide you.

My heart goes out to you and to Stubby's family.

Scout 'n Freyja said...

My precious Tweedles, I am so deeply sorry about your dear Stubby's completing his Circle of Life. Those that leave us go on to know the real meaning of life. I mourn your loss with you. I did not know your darling friend but I know you and I know that your heart would not be so deeply saddened if the forests hadn't lost a good friend.

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bbes tribe said...

Tweedles we are SO sorry about your friend Stubby. He sounds like a wonderful wise friend who will be remembered by many who will carry his memory in their hearts. What a wonderful tribute to him.
Loving tailwags
Ernie,Sasha,Chica

zenmasterlauren said...

Oh my sweet Tweedles. I am so sorry for the loss of your wonderful friend Stubby! He is in a happy place now and will always be watching over you. Thank you for sharing with us about him!! Hugs and snorts to you!!! xo Lauren & Mitzu

soggibottom said...

There are lots of bright stars above, some will always be brighter and twinkle longer than others Tweedles. X X X
Lots of luv AMES X

Chatty Crone said...

Tweedles - I am so sorry for the loss of your friend - and for your friends loss.

sandie

♥ Sallie said...

Beautiful tribute.

((((((((Big Hug))))))))

Hank said...

Sweet Tweedles.....we are so lucky to have had Stubby, huh?

You are a young pug with lots of life ahead of you, so please remember everything Stubby taught you.

Love,

Sarah, Hank and Molly

Tweedles -- that's me said...

words from my Mimi
Sweetheart, Stubby is with you more than ever now. He is in your ♥ and you can take him with you everywhere. All you need to do is be still, close your eyes and - shhhh - listen to your beating heart, feel your beating heart. Stubby is there and as long as you live he will walk in the woods with you and share treats with you and go into the forest with you for adventures. His sweet soul is now whole and happy and healthy so now he can go on all of your adventures with you.

Your mimi is going to send to you something that she wants you to place on your collar or harness. Look for it in the mail in a week or so...

love, your mimi

Winston, Kizzy and Tika of Two Cats and a Pug said...

Stubby was such a beautiful soul. I would like to join you when you head out to try to catch that star. We are having troubles saying good bye. This post touch us in many ways. Thank you for this.


Winston

Joan said...

Tweedles, Thank you. Thank you for always knowing just the right words to share with all your blogger buddies. You truly have a way of making hearts joyful even in times like this. Your tribute to Stubby is extremely precious and beautiful all rolled into one. And will remain in our hearts forever.
Joan & Jane Austen Eyre

Miss Kodee said...

What a beautiful tribute to a wonderful friend. I bet Stubby is wagging his tail in appreciation.

Pearl said...

Oh Tweedles, I had to come here and read your words because I knew you would be reflecting on all that Stubby taught us. You always have the right words for what is in our hearts.

Momma has been crying so much. Soon, though, we will dry our tears and do what Stubby would want us to do: Love this life. Love this planet. Love each other.

I am holding paws with you.

xoxo
Pearl

Roxy Ann LaRue said...

Hi Tweedles, I am saddened to hear of you losing your friend Stubby and I am most sad the Stubby parents must miss him so much more. Not having seen or met stubby i am alos sad becuse I would have loved to run around a big backyard with him.
I love your thoughtful words and tribute to your friend. My wish is to look up in the sky tonight and see the Star of Stubby and smile knowing he is there watching over all of us.

Apollo said...

What a beautiful tribute. I love Stubby's Song. Yes, I will look at Stubby's memory marbles with you. And there are so many of them...

The Thuglets said...

Tweedles..we were so very sorry learn the sad news about your special friend Stubby.

What a lovely tribute.

Run free with the wind in your face Stubby.

Big Nose Pokes
The Thugletsx

Dana Orsborn said...

Hi Tweedles!

We love this tribute to Stubby.
He touched so many lives.

-Dana & Daisy

Chihuahua Girl said...

So sad to hear about Stubby!

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Jan Mader said...

My dearest Tweedles...Please don't be sad. Stubby is with you always. He's in your heart and you carry him everywhere you go.

What a beautiful tribute you wrote for your friend. I am crying with you Tweedles

Please tell Stubby's mommy and daddy how sorry I am for their loss....xoxoxo

~Kim at Golden Pines~ said...

Tweedles, I stopped back by your blog and see that my words that I wrote are not here...I will say again that I'm so sorry about the loss of your good friend. I know that good friends are very rare, and when you find one who touches your soul and your heart, they become a treasure in your life. I hope you find comfort in your memories of your friend Stubby and remember no one or nothing can ever take those away...

Sandra y Coco said...

Oh Tweedles what a beautiful post for Stubby. We loved the song. You are a good friend, just as he is. We cannot say good bye as well. He is in our hearts, he always was and always will be.
Love,
Coco

Melvino's Mama said...

Tweedles, thank you for sharing your heart with us. I am so grieved by your sadness and the loss of sweet Stubby. I know, thought, that Stubby's wisdom will live on in you and all of us who have been blessed to know of him... I believe that he is there with you, right now, as you acknowledge the beauty around you in every moment of the day. What a gift.

Thank you, Stubby, for the Love and Wisdom you shares while here on earth. We look forward to meeting you on the Other Side, someday.

With Love,
Melvino and Jen

Sew DoggyStyle said...

Awwwww, hugs and kisses of comfort sent your way.

Manon Doyle said...

A big hug for you, Tweedles. It's hard to lose a friend!! xoxoxoxo
love, Otis

GAIL said...

Never good bye, only "until we meet again". xoxo

K9 + Grace said...

Sweet Tweedles... I am so sorry. I didn't know Stubby but right now I feel as if I do. He will be in your heart always...

Licks,
Ruthie

Joan said...

Hey There little Tweedles,
Just stopping by again to check up on you. And sending you lots of Puggie Hugs, too.
Joan & Jane Austen Eyre

Cooper and Lola said...

We are so sorry about your friend Stubby. He sounded like a great pal. We found you via Sophie's View and we're now followers.

Nancy Medina said...

Dear Tweedley:
What a beautiful song to sing in our hearts about Stubby Angel, thank you for sharing it with us. We will watch for the new star tonight, and think of him with love.
xoxox
Aunty Nancy, Howie, Annie and Java

Suka said...

hey Tweedles,

I am so furry sad to read of your dear friend Stubby's passing. My deepest heartfelt condolences to you and Stubby's family. You pawed a beautiful tribute to Stubby, and I know he is with you in Spirit and is wagging his tail with delight at your lovely thoughts about him.

Take comfort in knowing that good-byes are never forever. I am really sorry you never got to meet in real life, but you will meet again where all the dogs go to play once they leave here.

Peace,

Suka

Bobbi said...

Oh, I'm so sorry for you losing your friend Stubby. What a beautiful tribute to him. This made me teary.. I was just looking into Gracie's eyes last night talking to her about how spunky she is, and how years from now she will start to have health issues and how sad it will be to watch her grow old... Tweedles you are such a special friend and I know Stubby was blessed by you. Sending hugs and well wishes your way...

George the Lad said...

I'm sorry you have lost your dear friend to the bridge. That is such a touching tribute.
run free dear Stubby, my thoughts are with his family
George xxx

Barb said...

So unfortunate that our bestest friends have such short lives. But thank God we have them for the time that we do! We have a pug named Chili. She'll be following!

The Thuglets said...

Tweedles we hope you are ok? Thinking about you.

Big Nose Pokes
The Thugletsx

Scout 'n Freyja said...

Tweedles, you need to contact your mimi.

MAXMOM IN SA said...

Hey there Tweedles...
I came back to read your special post to Stubby and these words struck me:
"Hearing your words lifted my spirit as I could imagine myself plowing through the snow filling the silence with my bells. I so wish I could run through the snow but your poem reminded me that I can, if only in my dreams. "

This is proof that your voice must not be hushed!

It was lovely chatting to you today...thank you!
Sending lotsaluv
MAXMOM IN SOUTH AFRICA

♥MONA + MOMMY TOO♥ said...

Mommy and I cried reading you tribute to your friend Stubby. I didn't know him but he sounds like a doggie I would have loved too.

Our computer blog in working again and we have lots of catching up to do.

Love and {{{huggies}}}...Mona & thr Mommy too!!

Paula said...

Missing your posts Tweedles. Group ((((((HUGS)))))) may make us all feel better about Stubby.

ra husky said...

Soft husky woooos,

RA & Isis